The end of this deployment is harder than I thought it would be. Everything between me and him is going really good. But, our communications are slowing down, and I'm finding that we are talking less and less. It's hard to get used to not talking to him all the time, after having so many months of everyday communication. I forgot what it felt like to not know what was going on, or when I would hear from him again. I didn't talk to him yesterday or today, it was the day before, and I thought I would hear from him today, but I didn't. I know he's busy, and he's doing his best to find time to talk to me. And I appreciate every chance I get to talk to him. He doesn't seem as excited about coming home as I thought he would be, but I guess it's different for him. I know he needs to keep himself focused, and he still needs to get enough sleep so he's alert. It's just hard right now because I want him to come home so bad, and I have a hard time understanding his level of excitement compared to mine. I have a hard time understanding why he seems so much busier than everyone else. All my friends still talk to their husband's everyday. Most don't get to talk to them on the computer anymore, but they still get phone calls almost everyday. Even if it's just a quick one letting them know they are thought about and still missed. He's been WONDERFUL throughout this whole deployment as far as communication goes, and I know that when he has the chance he will call me,I just feel bad that he's so much busier than alot of other people are right now. As far as I know he's still working really hard, and trying to get everything done that he needs to do so that he can come home. I can't wait to see him, it's gonna feel so good to have him home with us again. Denny's getting really excited too. He talks about it all the time, and asks at least once a day how many more days we have to go before daddy is home. the closer it gets the more excited I'm getting, but I'm also getting more nervous and scared. I don't know what to expect, and it's fear of the unknown that worries me. He says everything will be the same as before but I know that it's not gonna be. A year is a long time, and I'm sure we've both changed. Add that in with everything that he's been through over there, and I have no idea what things will be like. I just want our life back, and I want everything to feel normal again.