Today was long, time went by so slow. I still haven't heard anything from Allen. I don't know what to think or what's going on. I hope he calls tomorrow. I found myself really lonely, and really missing him today. I mean I miss him all the time, but today was bad. This lack of communication is really starting to get to me. I know it's not his fault, and if he was able to call he would, but wow. I hope he can call soon. I'm finding myself getting really anxious, and impatient. I just want to hear his voice, just talk to him, and to know that he's ok. I was doing really good, but the longer it goes without contact the harder it gets, and the more my mind wonders. I hope everything's ok. I guess no news is good news. I had another weird dream last night about him coming home. This time he just walked in the door, and I had no idea he was coming. It would be a nice suprise if that actually happened, but I doubt it would. Surely, someone would contact me to let me know he was coming. But either way, that dream along with all the other ones I've been having about him coming home drove me to massive house cleaning today. Not that the house was messy or anything, cause it wasn't but I cleaned out so many things today, just trying to stay busy and keep my mind off of missing him. All I think about anymore is him coming home. It consumes my mind 24/7. I'm really excited, and nervous. He's all I can think about. I get so distracted sometimes thinking about him and how great it's gonna be to have him home again. Today, I had to go on post to get cigarettes, and I actually left the house without Denny. I thought he was in the car, but he wasn't. Luckily I only got to the end of the street before I realized I didn't have him with me. I don't know what I was thinking. Of course I turned around and went back for him. The neighbors must have thought I was crazy. I don't know, I just want him to come home. I've been waiting for so long, I'm just ready for this deployment to be over with, and I'm sure he is too. I still feel selfish for feeling like this, and wanting him here so bad, because he's the one that has it rough right now, not me. I should just be thankful that this is almost over. I love him more than anything, and I'm ready to get back to our life at home together. I hope I can fall asleep tonight. Last night all I did was toss and turn, and I slept with the phone by my head again, just in case he called, I wanted to make sure I heard the phone ring. Well tomorrow's a new day, hopefully I will hear something from him.