Another Deployment
He's been gone now for about 10 days. I can't believe we have to go through another deployment. This one's going to be a little longer than last time. So far, I have been doing really good. I don't think that it's completly hit me yet. Me and Dennis have been really busy with soccer that I haven't been in the house too much in the evenings until around 9pm and by then I'm working on schoolwork, or talking to Heather. I've been hanging out with her alot since Allen left and it's really helping me to stay sane. I think since she's in the same situation as me and our husband's are actually together I feel better.
I miss him so much though, I can't stop thinking about him. He's been doing really good about contacting me though, and that's making a HUGE difference. The days that I hear from him are my best days. I just need to know that he's safe and that he's doing good and then I think I'll be alright. I can't explain why it feels so different this time but it does. Part of it I'm sure is because we went through this once before and I know a little more about what to expect. I have the dogs and Dennis is older, living on post is also helping, and I actually have friends this time around. Even though I had a few friends the last time, they weren't the same. And those friends aren't really here for me this time. I guess I feel different this time because the whole thing is different. I know that we're going to be fine and we're going to get through this. I just wish it was time for R&R already. I forgot how bad it felt to miss him this much and how lonely it is without him in bed with me at night. It's the little things that I miss the most. I miss him holding me, I miss him kissing me, I miss folding his laundry, and getting him to yell at the dogs because they won't listen to me. I miss him coming in from PT in the morning and coming home for lunch. I acutally miss his driving too, even though I complained about it alot, it was nice having him to drive when we'd go somewhere. I miss hearing him laugh, snore, cough, breath. I miss everything about him. I can't wait till he's back at home with us. This is gonna be a long 15 months.
I miss him so much though, I can't stop thinking about him. He's been doing really good about contacting me though, and that's making a HUGE difference. The days that I hear from him are my best days. I just need to know that he's safe and that he's doing good and then I think I'll be alright. I can't explain why it feels so different this time but it does. Part of it I'm sure is because we went through this once before and I know a little more about what to expect. I have the dogs and Dennis is older, living on post is also helping, and I actually have friends this time around. Even though I had a few friends the last time, they weren't the same. And those friends aren't really here for me this time. I guess I feel different this time because the whole thing is different. I know that we're going to be fine and we're going to get through this. I just wish it was time for R&R already. I forgot how bad it felt to miss him this much and how lonely it is without him in bed with me at night. It's the little things that I miss the most. I miss him holding me, I miss him kissing me, I miss folding his laundry, and getting him to yell at the dogs because they won't listen to me. I miss him coming in from PT in the morning and coming home for lunch. I acutally miss his driving too, even though I complained about it alot, it was nice having him to drive when we'd go somewhere. I miss hearing him laugh, snore, cough, breath. I miss everything about him. I can't wait till he's back at home with us. This is gonna be a long 15 months.
posted by Missing him more at 1:06 AM
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