Today has been one of those days. I don't really feel like doing anything. I want to talk to Allen so bad, but I can't, he's not online. I hope he's ok, I hate when this happens. I sit here and all I can do is worry about him, and if he's safe or not. I want to hear his voice so bad right now. I haven't talked to him at all today. All I did was go to soccer practice and come home. There hasn't been really anything to do, or anything I feel like doing. I don't know anymore. I just want him to come home. I want this deployment to be done with. I hate whining and complaining about it, but it seems like it's taking forever, and times going by so slow. i don't know if part of it is because I haven't talked to him yet today, or if it's just because I know we only have a couple more months to go before he's back at home with us again. But, I want it now. I don't want to wait anymore. I just want to be able to touch him again, and fall asleep in his arms. I want to wake up next to him, and feel safe again. I want everything. I want our life back. I feel like it's been taken away from us, and I'm left here to deal with everything, and wait for him. I mean I know that he deals with alot more than I do, and that in alot of ways I'm the lucky one. He's the one in danger, and he's the one that has to suffer the most. He misses out on so many things going on at home. It just doesn't seem fair that he has to be gone, and away from us for so long. I just can't wait till he's home.