Everything went good today, except I didn't really get to talk to him to much today. Well, we talked for a little over an hour this morning, but he was supossed to get back online around 9:00pm and he hasn't gotten on yet. I trust him, but lately I've been hearing so many bad stories. I know a couple people that are getting divorced because of this deployment, and I don't ever want that to happen with us. I don't know what to do, or how I should feel right now. I've been doing better with handling everything, but lately, it seems like he's so much more distant. Before when he was off work, and he had extra time, he spent so much more of that time online with me. It's not like that anymore. I know he's busy, and he's doing his best, but it just seems like he's had other things to do, or other things going on lately. I hope everything's ok, and there's nothing wrong. I love him more than I could ever explain, and I just want us to be happy, and spend our lives together. That's why I married him. To share the rest of my life with him, and only him. And of course Denny, and our future children too. I just can't imagine my life without him in it, and right now, I dont know why, but something doesn't feel right. I don't know why I get myself all worked up like this. I know when he's able to get on, he'll have a logical reason, for not getting on at 9 like he said he would. I'm sure he just fell asleep or something, or maybe something work related came up unexpectedly. He had to go earlier cause of something unexpected, so maybe that's all it is. I don't know why, but everytime this happens, I feel like I did something to make him mad, or upset, so he just doesn't get on. I want to talk to him so bad, I miss him so much, and I wish more than anything he was home with us right now. Denny's gonna be starting school here soon, and I can't help think about all the things he's missing out on. It's hard but I know we're gonna make it through this. I guess right now I'm just in a mood cause I was really looking forward to talking to him tonight, and he's not signing on. I don't know what's going on.