Today was a busy day. I got alot of stuff done around the house, and my motivation's coming back. I got to talk to him for a pretty long time today, and last night we talked for several hours. It was Great. I went over to Chris's yesterday and went swimming with the kids. It was nice to get out of the house again.
I got some cleaning done, even though the kids have everything a mess all over again. I hate that I can't wait till school starts and there's not a bunch of kids running around all over the house. I know it's partly my fault, but the kids keep Denny occupied and I'm glad that he has friends to play with, but sometimes, it gets to be a little bit too much.
I had another doctor appointment today. So far everything seems fine, but I'm worried about the tests they want to do on my heart. I don't really think there's anything wrong other than anxiety and stress but I'm still scared, and I don't like having to go through all of this without Allen right there by my side. I guess even though physically he's not here, he'll still be with me in my heart, and mind. Besides, we've been able to communicate so good lately that he'll almost know the results as soon as I do. I feel better about going and getting all of these things taken care of so I don't have to worry as much, and I know Allen feels better too. Denny was acting up a little bit for me today, but it felt so good to be able to have Allen right there to help me with him. I feel bad about it in a way because I feel like I should be handling all of the things that go on at home while he's gone, he has enough to deal with. But. he's always able to make things better for us, and I appreciate everything that he does. I could never expect or even ask him to do everything he does for us, especially when right now he's 7,000 miles away. I guess that just shows what a GREAT husband and father he is.