The talking helps

Today was a pretty good day so far. He got online in the morning, and woke me up. It was wonderful, so nice to wake up to the sound of his voice. We talked for a long time, it felt great. I had some errands to run today, things I had to get done for Denny for school, and while I was out doing them, all I could do was think about him again, and how he's gonna miss out on Denny's first day of second grade, along with so many other things. It felt strange to go to the school, and do all this without him here. It wasn't like this last year. He came with me, and we did everything together. I miss that so much.
I know he'll be home eventually, and we'll have that again, but the waiting seems to take forever. When I got back, we talked again, and this time we really got a lot of things out in the open. He still doesn't know what to do about reenlisting, but we did talk about it. This whole time I've been sitting here thinking that he wasn't ready to get out of the Army, and today he told me that he is ready to get out anytime. I was suprised to hear him say that, but it made me look at things alot different. Before, I kept telling him to stay in, and reenlist. The biggest reason I did that was because that's what I truly thought he wanted. He thought that I was trying to get him to reenlist because I didn't want to give up military life. But that's not it at all. I just thought he wasn't ready to give it up. There's some nice things about this life, but we can have that without the Army. We still have a lot of talking to do on this subject, and it's such a tough decision. I'm happy that he's finally starting to open up and talk to me about what goes on in his mind. I wish he would do it more often. It helps me to see where he's coming from, and makes things a little easier for me. I try to be as open and honest with him as I can be. I just don't want to make things harder for him. There's so much stuff that I need to get done around the house, but I don't feel like doing any of it. I don't know why, but I'm feeling really lazy today. I don't want him to think I'm crazy or anything with the way that I keep thinking because I truly don't believe that I'm crazy. I'm just an very emotional person, in love with the most wonderful man in the world, and I miss him more than anything.