Does anyone understand????

Every morning I wake up thinking of him and hoping he's alright. I await his phone calls and computer time, they are my lifeline. I live each day knowing nothing really. Always on gaurd. I have to carry on knowing he's in danger so far away. But if you asked me how I do it I would say I don't know. I've never done this and I couldn't have prepared for this kind of pain, and lonliness, even though I tried. Do you know the pain of watching the love of your life walk away, not knowing if or when you'll see them again? I know this pain. The hurt and emptiness it creates has no comparison. It was the worst feeling in the world, almost undearable.
Now, I sit here and wait, trying to go on with my day to day activities without him. It hurts. My heart bleeds, and only the sound of his voice can comfort me now. And for that I must wait. You see, he just can't pick up the phone and call whenever he wants. He has a job to do. And this job has taken him away for awhile. From me, our son, our marriage, and our family. Some many sacrifices. I'm not the only one that knows this pain, he knows it too, and so does our son. But this pain will make us stronger, more courageous, and more understanding in the end.