Well, he called me this morning, a little after 6:00am. It was so good hearing his voice. The phone card ran out though in the middle of our conversation and cut us off. Now I'm waiting for him to get online or call back. He said he was going too. I cried on the phone a little bit, I tried not to but I couldn't help it. Now, I feel bad, and I'm afraid that I might have upset him again. I don't know what to do. This is just so hard for me, and I don't want him to be upset by anything I say or do. When we're so far away from each other though, it's so hard not to say things to him, and let him know how I feel, and I want to share my thoughts and feelings with him, but I don't want him to be worrying about me. I know he doesn't need to, and shouldn't have to deal with me being like this on top of everything else he's going through over there. I feel like I'm burdening him with all my problems, and emotions over this whole deployment. I keep telling myself that I am strong, and that I can do it, but sometimes, I get so scared and worried, that I can't, or that I'm gonna mess something up. He tells me that I won't and that everything is fine. But, I feel like in time, if I keep doing this, I'm gonna push him away. I don't want him to feel as though he has to call em, but at the same time, of course I want to talk to him. I'm confused, and I feel like crying agian. I know I can't do that, and I can't keep torchering myself all the time. I do feel a little bit better, but I know that if I don't hear from him and have a conversation with him without crying, that'll only end up making my feel like shit again. I have to get through this next conversation without crying. I hope I have the willpower to do that. I know I'm gonna try.