Once again, I was having a good day. I don't know what happened to make me feel yucky all the sudden. Maybe it's cause I didn't get to talk to him again. Wow, if that's what's made me feel like this then I am selfish. I already talked to him once today for almost an hour. It was the happiest hour of my day. But he told me that he was calling me back, and he didn't. I really don't know why. I'm sure he just got busy and couldn't. And I know that he can't always control when he calls me. But it still hurts. I worry and I wonder, if something's happened, or if he's still safe. I hope everything's ok. I'm feeling a little tired. I'm not sure why though. Maybe if I go to bed early, I'll feel better. Besides, the faster I fall asleep, the sooner tomorrow comes, and the closer it is till I talk to him again. I'm so thankful to have such a wonderful husband. Denny, and I are so lucky to have him in our lives. He is the best father that Denny could have. So why am I feeling so crappy about this whole deployment. I know it's his job, and I'm so proud of him, and I'm proud to be his wife. But I guess I need him too. So does Denny. We need him at home. We need to know he's safe. I can handle things without him here, but I truly don't like it. Without him here, I feel like my life is empty. It just feels so lonely, and of course, Denny's here,and he's a big help. I don't know what I would do without him. And Dawn's a big help too. I guess. I just get so frustrated cause I want him to be here, and I want him to hold me, so I can touch him. I miss EVERYTHING. about him, and sometimes I get so scared. I don't know what to do.