I feel a lot better already. I dropped both of my classes for this session, and already, my mood has improved. I think that part of my problem was trying to deal with this deployment, and all the emotions that have come with it, on top of trying to stay focused on school work, denny, the house, the bills, the dog, the car, and everything else. I think I had to many things on my plate for the time being, and I will continue with school, when I'm able to better deal with this deployment. I hope it's soon, though, I don't want to postpone my graduation for very long. I feel bad for making the decision without talking to Allen about it first, but I feel like I've already given him too many things to think and worry about. I didn't mean for that to happen but I think it did, He was supossed to im me or call me back today, and he didn't, but I know he checked his email, I don't know, and I shouldn't assume, but I feel like maybe he decided after our phone call this morning, and reading that email, that maybe we needed a break. It's hard for me though to not talk to him, especially after I had gotten so used to it. Maybe it's for the best, and maybe we both need some time. I don't doubt his feelings, or our marriage, but I feel like maybe I'm pusing him away and that's the last thing I want to do. I love him more than anything in the world, and I don't want anything to happen to us. I don't know what I would do without him. I realized that I need to relax, and try to be more understanding of this whole thing. I know he misses us, and he would come home if he could. I guess, I just haven't been dealing with it as well, as I thought. Well, today I have reached the breaking point, and I know it's time to stop acting like I've been acting. I just hope it's not to late, and I hope I haven't made him mad, or too upset over all this. I want to talk to him, I can't wait to talk to him again.