This deplotment is really taking a toll on me. Another bad day. I feel like he's gonna be gone for so long. I want him to come home. I don't want to do this anymore. Tomorrow's Thurday already. Denny's sick, I'm sick, and we're both crabby cause of it. The house is a disaster, I have TONS of homework to do. but I don't want to do it. I feel so bad for crying on the phone with him today, but I couldn't help it. This sucks so bad. And I'm so ready for him to come home. I'm proud of him for everything he does, and I know and understand that this is his job, and he has to do it. Someone's got to. But sometimes, I wonder, why does it have to be my husband, and my son's father. Is it really worth giving up all of our time together as a family, and everything that goes along with it. I do support him, and I don't mean to be so negative about this, but I just wish he wouldn't have to be gone for so long. God, this hurts so bad. I miss him so much. I wish he could be here, lying next to me right now. I don't know what to do, or how I'm gonna get through this. I have faith and I do believe but I'm also scared. It's hard not to be. Thinking about everything that he's going through, and all that we're going through as a family. I want him to come home, and I feel so selfish for thinking like that. But I can't help it. I just never imagined that it would be so hard, and I never thought it was possible to miss someone so much. He asked if I've been thinking about the whole reenlistment thing. I was honest like I always am, and I told him that I have been thinking alot about it. I'm just afraid that now because I said that, he's gonna be over there worrying, and wondering what I'm thinking. I want to tell him exactly how I feel, but I can't seem to find the right words to express everything with. So complicated. I gotta stop worrying like this