All mixed up...............

I made the trip to PA, and I'm feeling ok. When I first got here, I was tired from the trip, and didn't feel like doing very much, but now I'm enjoying some time away from home. And been pretty busy visiting friends and family.
I talked to him today again. I'm glad that he's made it back safely to where he was going, but he's not handling things very well. When I talked to him today, he told me that he doesn't feel like getting out of bed, and that his body's in Iraq, and his mind is at home with us. I know it's hard, on him, and on us, but it hurt to hear him say that. I feel bad, because there's not much I can do to make him feel better. And I feel like it's all my fault. I think me and him have traded places emotionally for now. I'm the one that feels guilty like it's all my fault and he's the one that's hurting and upset. I'm hurting and upset about it too. I know how much he loves his job, but today he said he doesn't know if he likes his job anymore, and that he wonders why he's even doing it. I thought maybe something had happened since he got back over there, but he said that nothing happened, that he just feels this way from being away from us. I feel terrible, and I don't know how to fix it. I want everything to be alright. I told him to go talk to a chaplain or something. I think that would be the best thing. Normally, he wouldn't have agreed, he would have said he didn't need to talk to anyone, but today, he said it might not be a bad idea. It worries me because he needs to stay focused and be alert when he goes out on missions, and how can he do that, if he can't get us off of his mind. I know that he's going through a lot right now, but it's scary for me because there's no way I can understand it. I've never been there before and even though I try, I will never know exactly what it's like to be in his shoes, and to deal with or handle the things he's handling. I wish there was more I could do. I just keep reassuring him that he will always have a wife to come home to, and we will be ok. I hope I get to talk to him soon. I know he's been busy working, but hopefully we'll get to talk tomorrow that way I'll at least know he's safe, and maybe he'll be feeling better too.