Feeling Better

I'm back home from PA. The trip was nice. I got to spend some time with my dad which made it even better. It felt great to see everyone, and we both had fun.
He has internet in his room now, so communications between the two of us are alot better now. Today I talked to him with the voice chat, and webcam at the same time. It was great to see him, he looked so good. I just hope communications stay this good. It's helping me handle things alot better.
There's days I wish he was home with us, but I guess that's to be expected, and there would be something wrong if I didn't want him here with us.
Denny handled the second time he left a lot better than he handled the first time, that definately makes me feel better about this whole thing. He decided to reenlist, which is fine with me. We talked about it alot and I know that he put alot of serious thought into making that decision. I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful husband. He took the time to think about what was best for all of us, instead of just doing what he wanted. Even though part of me didn't want him to reenlist because of the deployments, I would have looked past my own selfishness so that he could be happy. And I know that he likes his job, and I could never ask him to give that up for me. I wouldn't want him too. So, I'm happy with his decision. Even though the deployment is hard we're making it through this, and it'll make it that much better when he comes home in a couple months.
Seeing him for 2 weeks was GREAT, and even though I took it harder when he first left a couple weeks ago than I did in January, everything seems better now. Part of me thinks it's because he has internet in his room, and I know communications between us are gonna be alot better, and part of me thinks it's because I went to PA to visit. Either way, I guess the important part is that it's better now, and soon he'll be home.
It still seems so far away. and I sit here and try not to think of it as being a long time, but I can't help it. I go back to thinking about all the things he's already missed in the first 5 months, and I can't help think of how much more he'll be missing out on back home. I feel bad that he's over there working and going through all of that, while we're sitting here at home waiting for him. It seems so unfair to him. But, I guess it comes with the job, and I'm so proud of him for all that he does. I never realized how much he had to give up by going over there. I guess I didn't realize how much me and Denny would have to give up either.