He emailed me, and now i understand exactly why he's been acting this way. Well, I'm at least trying to. I didn't realize how busy he was getting over there, and how many things he was dealing with right now. He's just as stressed as I am, probably more stressed, and he's trying his best. I've been so selfish and I've been so wrong. He does everything for me that he can, and he goes out of his way to make sure that I feel as good as I can about this whole deployment. I think sometimes, I forget where he is, because we get to talk so often, and he gets to watch tv sometimes, and do other stuff too. When he has free time. Sometimes for me, it feels like he's still in the states somewhere, and he's safe. But in reality he's not. He's still far from home, fighting everyday to make sure he comes home to us. And I can't believe I got so selfish, and I can't believe I was having such crazy thoughts. I mean he's reassured me over and over again that things are fine between us, and that they always will be, I don't know why I let myself dwell on the negative things I was thinking and turn them into crazy thoughts. I know he would never cheat on me, and I know he would never lie to me. He truly is the most wonderful, most amazing man in the world. From here on out, through the rest of this deployment and always I'm not ever going to doubt what he says again. I've learned my lesson this time. I LOVE HIM more than I could ever explain, and I can't wait for him to be home so I can feel whole again,