I finally got to talk to him today. It was so good to hear his voice and to know that he was ok. It looks like he'll be home a little earlier than I had thought, and I'm really starting to get excited about him being back home with us. I got together with one of my friends, and starting making welcome home banners for the house, and for the kids to take with us. It was really fun. Finished doing some cleaning around the house, and then Nori came over for a little bit, and hung out with me.Tiffany wrote me a letter today, telling me that she wants to go home, and that she misses everyone in PA. She wants to be back with my mom. I don't know how I feel about that. I know that's really where she belongs, and I can't keep her here when she wants to go back with my mom, but I was used to her being here. So was Denny, and even though she drove me crazy at times, I really enjoyed her being here with us. I guess we'll be taking her back to PA when Allen goes on leave, and we drive up to PA to visit. I just hope everything works out for the best, and that she's happy. That's the most important thing, her happiness and getting to have the life that she deserves. Such a strange mix of emotions going on right now, I don't know how to describe it. The excitment, and nervousness, and the anticipation, and everything is all mixed together. I don't know whether to cry, or be jumping up and down because our turn's finally gonna be here soon. It's hard to put into words the way that I'm feeling, and I know that noone can understand how this feels unless they're going through it. I never thought the day would come when this deployment would be over, and not it's almost here. at times, it's hard to believe, and I feel like it's not real. Like it's not really time yet. And other times, I feel like our time is WAY overdue, and he should have been home along time ago. He seemed to be a little bit more excited about coming home which made me feel good. It hurt my feelings when I would ask him if he was excited, and he would say no. I know that it didn't mean he didn't want to see us, but that's how it made me feel. I guess it goes back to the understanding thing, and not being able to know exactly where he's coming from with all this either. We're going through alot of the same feelings and emotions right now, but also alot of different ones too. I know that I think too much, and I read way to much into things, but I can't help it, that's the type of person I am. I like to know things, and if I don't have an answer to a question in my find, I seek that answer out until I get something. I guess sometimes that's a bad thing because sometimes the answers I come up with, aren't really the right ones. And I always assume the worst. I don't really know why I do that, except maybe to prepare myself in case the worst happens. I don't know what to expect with this situation though. I feel confident that we do have a good marriage, and we will get through this and we'll be just fine, but at times I still am unsatisfied that everything is ok. And I think I will feel that way until he is home, and I can see for myself that everything is in fact fine between us. I don't know why I worry so much, he's a wonderful husband, and a wonderful father. He's done more for me and Denny from 7000 miles away that anyone has ever done for us, and I know that he loves us. Now I'm getting myself back into that rambling stage where my thoughts start getting out of control. I have to stop that before I make myself crazy. He said he might call tomorrow, but honestly, I'm not expecting to hear from him for a few days, at least that's been the pattern lately. WOW, I just can't believe how soon he's gonna be coming home. I'm back to not being able to sleep, or eat, all I think about is him, and having him back at home with us.